the last mail.

RE: Hai ayah...‏

From:	Nasyiba S (nash_oops@hotmail.com)
Sent:	28 May 2010 16: 55PM
To:	sahari A. wahid (sahari_wahid@yahoo.com)

Assalamualaikum ayah,

Syiba sihat. Syiba mohon maaf, sbb tak reply cepat2. apa2 pun syiba akan sentiasa doakan ayah selamat. tolong ampunkan syiba, dah banyak dosa syiba pada ayah. tapi percayalah, amarah tak sikit pun ubah kasih sayang syiba terhadap ayah. walau apa pun dah jadi, syiba tahu ayah akan selalu ada di sisi syiba. you are in me. you see what I see. I love you ayah. you are the man I love the most. I hope you remember that always. dan syiba tahu ayah pun sayang syiba. you once said, if you could, you would turn invisible and fly to me whenever you want to, just to see me. now you can, ayah. I don't know how long I'll be here. nanti suatu masa, di hari yang indah, ku hulur tanganku, lalu kau terima, kan?

don't worry about me. I'll live my life to the fullest.

I love you.

Missing you always,

Syiba.

There's nothing I wouldn't do

to have just one more chance

to look into your eyes

and see you looking back.

this is too much for me.

Did you just wink at me? I'm shy, you know.

hahha.

true story.

Pal,

I so love the idea of you having a blog.

and thanks for trusting me.

and jyeah, everything's gonna be alright (:

helloh!

been so long eh?

I'm telling you, I've become a psycho.

AKLTG camp has made me so crazy about ABM I think I wouldn't know where to go if I don't get the course. and that's semi awesome.

of course I realise I got a lot of improvement to be done.

anyway. I think the Baroque music technique really works for me.

okay enough right. for Nadh lah okay :D I'm sucha gooood friend hahah

apparrently when I'm in the mood to journal Idk what to journal about.
heh

OH!
hahha, today I wonder how come some people just like to try annoy me when it's them annoying themselves by making believe that I'm the one annoying them.

oh wells, I believe in retribution.
but seriously idk what's their big problem.
hai, hormones I guess.

okay lah suddenly I don't feel like blogging. I'm in the mood of writing a malay novel. :O okay whatever.

adiosarh!

I'm turning into a study psycho - of my own accord.

:D so wells, not having a life and working hard hard hard is not so bad after all. of course, for the time being lah. I realise I am indeed very hungry for success. and I can picture the day I get my result slip and I long for glory. and I believe in it, just like back then. I wanna feel it again.

let's stay in school ava to study in the afternoon :D

and God, I pray that this O lvl spirit will stay on.

AMIN

BANG BANG BANG.

oh my gay what's up with me.

I've been dreaming of operating a rifle.

ice lemon tea baby.

hand me ice lemon tea, and I'll give you a kiss (:

cheh, like real.

anyway I seriously think that Heaven&Earth ice lemon tea has replaced Seasons's. a vending machine near my house has stopped selling Seasons's. geh, I love Heaven&Earth's! :D

I'm having pictures in my mind.

the truth is I miss that one night last year.

the one and only night I dared to come home past midnight.

then the next day that everything seemed so natural when he held my hands as we walked. it was different though something was amiss.

and today everyone in the house is out except me.

so wasted. hehe shall I text you out or what?

eww.

I think I kena hack quite a long time ago,

and I just found out like now?

O.O

and life goes on.

after browsing through my old pics, I found this and noticed that my lips are like heart-shaped. cool or whut. hahaha

as I was in the bus today I was talking to Nadh.

"I think I'm sick of this route home."

- "just a few more months..."

"but yeah, I'm sure once school ends I'm gonna miss this so much"

and before we realise, we already are graduating. :(

and,

I love NadRah (L).

and psst, I like someone in school :D

Reunion lunch part 1.

so met up qis at 12.45pm at clementi. EVERYONE WAS LATE.

typical kudakepians. lol.

so there were me, qis, atee, syaffy, wan, yat, acap, qhay and taufiq.

went to banquet for delayed lunch, then sky park, then off to plaza sing for another lunch and then play pool whereas only acap was legal. haha anyway I don't understand why people under 16 cannot enter, isn't pool just a game? like arcade right.

anyways. I and atee played a game. quite fun eh.

at the end of the day I was like "eh wanna go again"

and I forgot I'm not 16 yet.

4 more months hmm.

anyway to me it wasn't as gerek as it should be, cos many people are mugging for their mye.

I don't have right :D

hahah.

must have another one june hols :D

hancur dan luluh keranamu;

mawi - kian

yang terguris tak nampak di mata,
yang terhiris terluka.

ada makna nii.